A Mother’s Breastfeeding Journey

Kathleen Ramsey Little


Successful Breastfeeding Mom

Written by: Kathleen Ramsey Little

August 2014

I’m sitting on the edge of a cliff grasping for what little branches I can find to hang onto.

Using all my strength to keep from plunging down to the deep dark waters of depression below.

I feel incomplete.

Like I’m not a full woman. It’s as if I am not what a real mom should be. I want to nurture and feed him enough to support his life like a mother is supposed to do, but I can’t and it’s tearing me apart inside.

A daily struggle with thoughts saying I’m inadequate. Not good enough. Not a real woman.

I feel defeated.

No. Reaching harder so I don’t fall.

My child will still thrive and be healthy. My baby is loved. He is my world, my life, my everything. I must hold on for him.

I’ve done my best; I’ve tried my hardest. I am a real woman; I am a good mom. My best is more than good enough. I love my baby and he loves me.

Breastfeeding doesn’t only mean attached to the breast. It also means expressed AND donor’s milk.

I am NOT a failure.

I am a Successful Breastfeeding Mom.

4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Kelli Rush
    Sep 22, 2014 @ 18:24:37

    I know her personally and she is an amazing woman. I am sorry that she is struggling like this but I am glad she is overcoming her own body to do what needs to be done for her handsome little man!

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  2. Kathleen Little
    Sep 22, 2014 @ 21:56:54

    I would just like to say thank you both. Kelli I love you sweetie! ❤ I know my I am not alone in my struggle. There are other women out there who feel the exact same way I do. Regardless of their reasons for low/no supply, they are no less a woman and mother than anyone else. These words may have been written by me to express my own personal feelings, but they apply to any and all moms who struggle with breastfeeding for any and all reasons.

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  3. Malorie Thurman
    Sep 25, 2014 @ 19:51:55

    Kat, your story is truly inspiring. Not only are you a SUCCESSFUL breastfeeding mom, but a triumphant woman with the ability to overcome obstacles that so many mothers face and unfortunately give up. Your little man is so blessed to have a mother that loves him the way you do.

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